<<.::. Oooppssss..!He's Coming Back, 2nd Chance..? .::.>>

org yg aku cuba nk lupakan n lpskan dr hdp aku..tetb "dia" muncul lg..cner ye ak nk wat..?keadaan jd semakin sukar dgn sikap "dia" skrg nh..argghhhhh....!aku ketahuan skrg...hu3..tension3...!makin nk elakkan diri, makin plak "dia" mendekatkan diri..ntah apa la kehendak "dia" skrg..2,3 ari nih my inbox are fulled wiz his messages..the confession..the feeling..the truth..and his stories..aku kena ikut rentak permainan "dia" skrg nieh..jgn smp perasaan aku bertukar dendam yg dlm..
coz bg aku..

REVENGE is HUMANITY
REVENGE is SWEET
REVENGE is RIGHT
REVENGE is LAW

ahh..sukarnya nk nyatakan sgla..apa yg terbuku makin memakan diri aku dr dlm..sedikit demi sedikit mengikis jiwa aku yg lemah..menjadikan aku seperti patung bernyawa, tanpa perasaan..kdg2 aku jd terlalu sinis dgn persekitaran aku..xmengendah suma yg berlaku..klu bom meletup dlm umah aku pun rasanya aku xpeduli..kekdg aku jd kaku dgn peristiwa yg memerlukan aku beremosi..mgkn tangisan sblm ini da membuang dan menghanyutkan rasa belas dan kasihan aku pd insani..wpn aku rasa teruk dgn keadaan skrg, tp aku nk berdiri dgn kaki aku sendiri..aku blh melakukan sglnya yg aku impikan wpn tanpa sokongan drpd "dia"..menjadikan aku lbh berhati2 dlm perhubungan yg melibatkan perasaan..hati..dan jiwa..bkn mdh nk menyerah kalah pd "pertarungan" yg "dia" mulakan..
erm..umur dah mkin meningkat..dah menghampiri usia 30-an..tanpa "teman" bergelar "kekasih hati"..sekeliling mula menghimpit aku dgn pertanyaan2 yg menyakitkan hati dan memeritkan telinga..tp, why should i care..?people can only talk..they can't be us or be in our shoes..they doesn't know what we're thinking bout n they doesn't seems want to understand it.. i'm a gul in a new world..who's have my own target to hit..people don't care if u're married yet or not..but itz different in village or small village compare to a big town..peoples in village are to busy body..it will become a big issue..like a nuclear booming in Hiroshima..like a tsunami in South Asia..if a gul at the age like me doesn't marry yet..where ever you go, they keep asking..and asking..and asking until they get the answer that will satisfy themselves..huhh..!what a STRESS...!HATE IT..!!!Really2 hate it..!
now is the time to confront wiz my past..wiz my problems..not hiding and running from it like i did before..coz itz still chashing me anywhere..giving me no peaceful in mind n my life..my rest gone anywhere..itz to hard to manage at 1st..but i will win diz game..2nd chance...?will think bout it..the things is, i can't lie to myself..i can't stop my feeling..i still hoping on "him"..still waiting for "him"..and still..and still..but, should i give "him" a 2nd chance..?